The operation is inevitable. Anytime next week, the surgery that I have been trying to evade cannot be delayed anymore because the procedure is necessary and it will ease all the pain that I have been experiencing for several weeks now.

Why do I fear the surgery? I am afraid of either general or spinal anesthesia. I had a trauma on my recent cesarean operation when the anesthesiologist did the procedure but failed thrice to perfectly find the right bone to inject anesthesia.

How will they do the operation? I wish it is electrosurgery but apparently it will be a traditional one. That could a long and painful process for me.

After the operation? I have a low pain tolerance, I cannot measure how painful it could be during the recovery stage.

What do I need now are mental and physical preparations and prayers.